Coffee shop

Today I'm listening to: "Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop" by Landon Pigg 

Some things happen so quickly. We don't even notice when they come in our way. We are scared and at the same time excited. Weird... Let's see where it will bring us.

Everything at once

Today I'm listening to: "Fire" by Kasabian
Wonderful feelings mix with those sad ones. I guess I'm really on fire lately. 

One Tree Hill

Today I'm listening to: "One Tree Hill" by U2

"So make your wish
Do you have it?
... Good.
Now believe in it 
with all your heart"

Our life pathes are not easy. They are not straight. They are messy and unsolved. The important thing to remember is that wherever we go, whatever we decide to do we should always stay a good and loving man. That's the essential. Sometimes people are going to let us down, sometimes we won't have strenght to go through life with our heads high. That's what makes us humans. But we are ambitious and that's a lot more then one can imagine. Let's open our hearts. Let's live our dreams. There's a long journey ahead of us.

Today I'm listening to: "In a Bar" by Tango with Lions

People tend to ask me what I'm scared of the most. It had been in my head since forever but today I truly realised what it is. It's not loosing someone, not death. What I'm afraid the most is that I won't have any memories to bring back. No great but short love, no crazy, memorable moments. Nothing. That makes me very sad.

Passing by

Today I'm listening to: "Sinking Ship" by Neutral Milk Hotel

It's getting kind of clear to me that I'm the one that has a problem here, not them. I'm of the belief that there's something wrong with all these people but what if I'm wrong? What if this whole universe is a great combination of all kinds of figures and I'm just not one of them? I can't see the resemblence. Everything is better then me, everyone is more valuable then me. I'm coming to the conclusion that some of us are made to do great things, to live crazy lifes and some of us, people like me, are created to watch them, analyse them and write about them. The only reason I'm still existing is because I have to make sense of this all. How shall I achieve this though?

Alone in the crowd

Today I'm listening to: "Creep" by Radiohead

Millions of people, millions problems to solve, only one World.

To J.

Today I'm listening to: "Song for Jo" by Scarlett Johansson

I would like to dedicate these words to my best friend since childhood or actually since we were embrions J.. These are the words which I'm afraid to say aloud and maybe there will come a moment when you'll be able to read it yourself J. I hope it's gonna happen. I know that your life isn't that perfect at the moment, I know that these dark days came and your fears cumulated into some massive shit which is so hard to fight. I'm with you J. I love the fact that we have such a long history and  I'm so glad that I could ever meet this amazing and incredibly optimistic pearson that you are. Right now we don't have very much in common. We're living different lifes but I don't care. I know that I can talk to you and you'll understand me. Keep your head up man. You have long life to live. I hope that everything will get better soon. PS. Try listen to this song. I hope it will remind you of some good times, that we've had when we were younger. My soul is right with you out there.

                                                                                                         Your weird, JLo looking friend.

This is My House, This is My Home

Today I'm listening to: "This is My House, This is My Home by We Were Promised Jetpacks

Home. There's no place in the World that can replace it. We wait here for days to start and we end them here. Our souls feel here like nowhere else. When something wrong happens that's where we go. That's the place where we really feel like we belong. House doesn't mean so much without close people though. They are the ones that actually save us. Family, friends, neighbours, People who mean so much to us. They create this amazing atmosphere thanks to which we feel better and safe.

Kids

Today I'm listening to: "Hourglass" by Catfish and The Bottleman

"Every child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of man."

   Everyone of us was a kid one day. We had seen world in a different perspective and everything seemd a lot easier. Now we are here and we wonder how to go through our lives without loosing our childchood dreams.
   As the quote says God is a giver and we are the ones who are gifted with these amazing creatures we all used to be. That's so amazing that we are here don't you think so? We should be grateful for every second we can spend in this World. So today let's be thankful. Even if right now we are sturggling with some dark sides of our lives we ought to think about these moments that made us so much stronger and helped us heal the wounds in our hearts.

What about us?

Today I'm listening to: "Human Race" by Three Days Grace

I don't belong here,
not in this atmosphere
GOOD BYE

I'm sick of this life. I would really like to hide somewhere. In place where my problems wouldn't be able to find me. I feel like I am not able to do anything. Everything is falling apart, fading. What kind of reality is it? If only I could help myself and people I care about. I truly wish I could.

Today I'm listening to: "Boys Don't Cry" by the Cure

"I know that it's no use 
That you've already 
Gone away "

People Always Leave. Why is it so fucking true? Whatever you try to do it always ends up the same. I know I shouldn't cry in these moments but is there some other way to get through this? True tears are like rain. They wash away all of dirts from your soul to leave it smooth and prepared for better things to happen. Sometimes you've got to hide these tears in your eyes but you still feel them. That's what makes you authentic. Don't loose it.

incapable

Today I'm listening to:"One" by U2

Benefit your life because you never know when your freedom will end.

Philadelphia

Today I'm listening to: "Streets of Philadelphia" by Bruce Springsteen

We are only people right? All of us. We've got only one life and actually that's all we've got. We die alone, no matter how many people surrounded us, at the end we all end up alone struggling with deth. So here comes the question: 'Why don't we accept each other as we ought to do'? What's up with us? Reigion, race, beliefs, sexsual orientation, ilness or other. Should these things be some kind of cages? Let's make these lifes of ours special by accepting and loving each other because we deserve it. Every one of us deserves to be loved for who we are...

Being different

Today I'm listening to:"The Grand Finale" from the movie "Edward Scissorhands" composed by Danny Elfman

My example today is the great character from the movie mentioned above- Edward. The story of this extraoridnary hero is actually very sad but also very timeless. You see we're all some kind of different and that makes us special and 'only one' in the world. The bad thing is, however that people can be cruel to us just because they want to fit in so badly so they hurt others to get on the top. This is just how it is. The most important thing and actually the only thing we can do about it is to make sure that we don't turn into these grumpy and cruel people who judge others and don't see their own faults. We need to accept each other because in either way how can we cooperate in this fast-running and crazy reality? Don't be afraid, just accept because that's what makes us worthy.

Spinning life

Today I'm listening to: "Carousel" by Jonathan Clay

Living in routine. It's the worst thing you can do. Time doesn't stand still as you sometimes expect it to do. Instead It's just running quickly. You become frustrated victim of your own situation. What can you do to stop this carousel that you' re on? How to tell your worries goodnight? These are difficult question. But maybe there is some explanation and maybe just maybe you are able to stop this whole spinnig machine. Sometimes eaven a one talk or one eye contact can make you stop and just think for a little while. Hope for all of us to find it, because as much as we enjoy the first ride and maybe even the next ones it has to stop. In other way you might get lost in this rapidly running life.

Clarity

Today I'm listening to: "Perfect Sonnet" by Bright Eyes

"Love...is it the point of it all? To be loved. To be understood. To understand. Strength and clarity. That's what I wish for today." These are the words of the pearson that is really close to my soul. Especially today they have a lot deeper meaning than then they ever had. Sometimes I wish I was more asertive and 'put together'. My mind is dancing around so many things and I just forget the real sense in this all. Will I ever get a total clarity in things that are happening to me? It would really help. Oh God it would. Sometimes we run so fast that we loose much. Too much...

Undeniable facts

Today I'm listening to: "Lullaby" by The Cure

Here's some interesting thing about our lives: when something bad happens to us we dream about some good things. When the good things arrive we instantly get so hooked up with this luck that we don't notice some elements and then we just whine about wrong things that fallow our enthusuastic reactions. It's all messed up I know but when you'll give it a closer look you will notice that you rely to it and that other people you know rely to this too. How many bridges we have to burn? How many paths we should fallow? How many faces we will see before our last days? We still think we're so different but what if we're all alike but we simply don't notice it...

Around and around and around

Today I'm listening to; "My Medicine" by The Pretty Reckless

It's all spinning around. I'm laying on the floor. Oh well. I guess that was too much. How dangerous was that? I would like to know but I guess I will never get to this. The pain stopped but the pictures I saw and the memories it made will never be erased from my mind. At the end it will come to get me again. Stronger. Till then I should be alright. Or maybe not...

Spinning Around by Stefan Khun