Today I'm listening to: "In a Bar" by Tango with Lions

People tend to ask me what I'm scared of the most. It had been in my head since forever but today I truly realised what it is. It's not loosing someone, not death. What I'm afraid the most is that I won't have any memories to bring back. No great but short love, no crazy, memorable moments. Nothing. That makes me very sad.

Passing by

Today I'm listening to: "Sinking Ship" by Neutral Milk Hotel

It's getting kind of clear to me that I'm the one that has a problem here, not them. I'm of the belief that there's something wrong with all these people but what if I'm wrong? What if this whole universe is a great combination of all kinds of figures and I'm just not one of them? I can't see the resemblence. Everything is better then me, everyone is more valuable then me. I'm coming to the conclusion that some of us are made to do great things, to live crazy lifes and some of us, people like me, are created to watch them, analyse them and write about them. The only reason I'm still existing is because I have to make sense of this all. How shall I achieve this though?

Alone in the crowd

Today I'm listening to: "Creep" by Radiohead

Millions of people, millions problems to solve, only one World.

To J.

Today I'm listening to: "Song for Jo" by Scarlett Johansson

I would like to dedicate these words to my best friend since childhood or actually since we were embrions J.. These are the words which I'm afraid to say aloud and maybe there will come a moment when you'll be able to read it yourself J. I hope it's gonna happen. I know that your life isn't that perfect at the moment, I know that these dark days came and your fears cumulated into some massive shit which is so hard to fight. I'm with you J. I love the fact that we have such a long history and  I'm so glad that I could ever meet this amazing and incredibly optimistic pearson that you are. Right now we don't have very much in common. We're living different lifes but I don't care. I know that I can talk to you and you'll understand me. Keep your head up man. You have long life to live. I hope that everything will get better soon. PS. Try listen to this song. I hope it will remind you of some good times, that we've had when we were younger. My soul is right with you out there.

                                                                                                         Your weird, JLo looking friend.