Today I'm listening to: 

Is a common sense our only right way to follow in life? Are there some universal rules for all of us? Is there only one way to go? I can't help but wonder what if looking too far back may cause some damage in the future. I tend to remind myself over and over some negative memories. It is so wrong so why does it keep on coming? I wish I could save in my heart only good images. Till I reach this poin I just have to deal with it. 

Today I'm listening to: Runaway by Leighton Meester

Right now,

I have a lighter and nothing to light,

I have a bed and nobody to share it with,

I have many people around me but none of them is you,

I feel lonely but I know I will see you soon.

Interruption

Today I'm listening to: "Apocalypse" by Cigarettes After Sex

Everyone needs something to hold on to. Something higher, more powerful. In my case it's love. Nothing matters without it. Nothing. 

There are moments of suspension, interruption but it's ok. It is fine.

What to do?

Today I'm listening to:

Welcome to my head. Crazy, insane and totally messed up. I can't really deal with myself. Fuck. I feel so divergent and oh so unable to do anything creative. I can't help but wonder what if today was our last. Would we really be able to say: yes, that's all that I have ever wanted or maybe we would be devastated. It all makes me think that maybe the best choice is to disappear. Just go somewhere else. After all the life goes on and so do people.