Today I'm listening to: "Joanne" by Lady Gaga
Where is the golden line of our life? I wonder how can I impact the time. I wish I could have stayed when I went away. I wish I could have been more me. Because after that came the consequences that I didn't predict and now it pains me so much. Just yesterday I was the luckiest girl on the planet. Why does it work this way. Wyh can't we change the time. Or at least control it to some point?
PUNKNDISORDERLY
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Sunday, December 16, 2018
Tuesday, November 6, 2018
Eyes
Today I'm listening to: "Pale Blue Eyes" by Velvet Underground
I'm really fascinated about eyes. For centuries eyes have been a complete mistery. Some say that eyes are a reflection of our soul. I strongly believe in that. The first thing we notice when we look on each others faces are the eyes. When we are sad the eyes are the ones which reveal our true emotions through crying.
It's incredible. Pale blue eyes- that's what I'm thinking of today.
I'm really fascinated about eyes. For centuries eyes have been a complete mistery. Some say that eyes are a reflection of our soul. I strongly believe in that. The first thing we notice when we look on each others faces are the eyes. When we are sad the eyes are the ones which reveal our true emotions through crying.
It's incredible. Pale blue eyes- that's what I'm thinking of today.
Monday, October 15, 2018
They keep on telling me I'm not good enough
Today I'm listening to: "Almost Good Enough" by Magnolia Electric Co.
10 things you can do if they let you down and tell you that you are not good enough:
1. become nervous and suspicious
2. start crying
3. say that they are wrong
4. have a cigarette
5. stop talking to anybody
6. think you are shit
7 .procrastinate
8. open the eyes and say I'm a worthy person
9. start crying again
10. AND FINALLY FUCK THEM ALL, DO WHAT YOU LOVE
that's the only thing that will set you free
10 things you can do if they let you down and tell you that you are not good enough:
1. become nervous and suspicious
2. start crying
3. say that they are wrong
4. have a cigarette
5. stop talking to anybody
6. think you are shit
7 .procrastinate
8. open the eyes and say I'm a worthy person
9. start crying again
10. AND FINALLY FUCK THEM ALL, DO WHAT YOU LOVE
that's the only thing that will set you free
Monday, October 1, 2018
How to find it
Today I'm listening to: "Love and Hate" by Michael Kiwanuka
In the air there is this dirt. I guess it is uncertainty. I don't want it and I didn't ask for it but I'm not able to make it go away. How to find the remedy. I will keep on lookin'. There's nothing else I can do...
In the air there is this dirt. I guess it is uncertainty. I don't want it and I didn't ask for it but I'm not able to make it go away. How to find the remedy. I will keep on lookin'. There's nothing else I can do...
Tuesday, September 18, 2018
Cry inside
Today I'm listening to: "Two Weeks" by Grizzly Bear
Is it somehow possible to end this all? Something that we bulit up for so long (or not so long at all), in a blink of an eye, make it dissapear. There are times when I think I want that and there are these other times.
Is it somehow possible to end this all? Something that we bulit up for so long (or not so long at all), in a blink of an eye, make it dissapear. There are times when I think I want that and there are these other times.
Tuesday, September 11, 2018
Fly till you get high
Today I'm listening to: "If You want Her" by The Geek x Vrv
How is it possible to feel inspired being in the one place and the moment later, in a different location feel nothing? Isn't the true inspiration coming from our hearts and minds? Is it that all that counts is environment really? And most importantly, can't we fight that? I'm confused. I know that certain places can make you more creative but it's not only about external dimension. It's also inside of us after all.
How is it possible to feel inspired being in the one place and the moment later, in a different location feel nothing? Isn't the true inspiration coming from our hearts and minds? Is it that all that counts is environment really? And most importantly, can't we fight that? I'm confused. I know that certain places can make you more creative but it's not only about external dimension. It's also inside of us after all.
Thursday, August 9, 2018
Fight with myself.
Today I'm listening to: "Arms around your love" by Chris Cornell
"It would have been alright if you gave half of the prayers that you held inside"
This is it, this is the moment when I have to take things in my own hands. I can't see the ending and the beginning is quite blurry. Is it a good sign that when we start a fight with ourselves we have to hit this giant wall called "things we are scared of"? The thought about it makes me curious but also anxious. But you know what? I am getting ready to ruble!
"It would have been alright if you gave half of the prayers that you held inside"
This is it, this is the moment when I have to take things in my own hands. I can't see the ending and the beginning is quite blurry. Is it a good sign that when we start a fight with ourselves we have to hit this giant wall called "things we are scared of"? The thought about it makes me curious but also anxious. But you know what? I am getting ready to ruble!
Tuesday, July 31, 2018
Today I'm listening to: Waves by Sqid
Sometimes at the concerts I tend to stop dancing and just stand and listen. It's not that I don't feel the music, it's all about that moment. When I feel so much, so deep, that I'm not able to move. Do you have the same thing sometimes? It's like I found something I can trust or fallow. Truely mind-blowing.
Sometimes at the concerts I tend to stop dancing and just stand and listen. It's not that I don't feel the music, it's all about that moment. When I feel so much, so deep, that I'm not able to move. Do you have the same thing sometimes? It's like I found something I can trust or fallow. Truely mind-blowing.
Monday, July 23, 2018
Back in black
Today I'm listening to: "Back in Black" by Amy Winehouse
Sometimes somebody's fail really makes us content. Why is that? I mean, really we don't wish anybody to be unlucky, so where it comes from. I'm in the process of getting over with some bad emotions that I used to hide in me. The journey is long and rocky I shall say. I wonder: are these things connected with our nature or do they come form outside and that is the way we defend ourselves?
Sometimes somebody's fail really makes us content. Why is that? I mean, really we don't wish anybody to be unlucky, so where it comes from. I'm in the process of getting over with some bad emotions that I used to hide in me. The journey is long and rocky I shall say. I wonder: are these things connected with our nature or do they come form outside and that is the way we defend ourselves?
"Black Square" by Kazimierz Malewicz
Sunday, May 27, 2018
The persistence of memory
Today I'm listening to: Somewhere Only We Know by Keane
Have you ever wondered how your life would look like if you haven't met this certain person? Would it all be different? I can't help but wonder, if some things are ment to be is it always a well way to go against them? To try to stop them? When we dream at night we can not change our dreams or their ending. They come and go just like the episodes of your favourite series. Finally, can we just for once let things be?
Have you ever wondered how your life would look like if you haven't met this certain person? Would it all be different? I can't help but wonder, if some things are ment to be is it always a well way to go against them? To try to stop them? When we dream at night we can not change our dreams or their ending. They come and go just like the episodes of your favourite series. Finally, can we just for once let things be?
Thursday, March 29, 2018
Sunday, March 25, 2018
Simple kind of life
Today I.m listening to: "Simple Kind of Life" by No Doubt
"The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get
You seem like you'd be a good dad"
It all gets complicated as I get deeper and deeper. How come that while young and "free" I feel like I already crossed so many paths and it all gets to an end. I feel like I can't be myself, that I am completely incomplete? While with somebody I feel lonely. So many questions run over my head lately. I'm not really sure where to begin. I guess every now and then we have to face this not so sweet melancholy.
"The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get
You seem like you'd be a good dad"
It all gets complicated as I get deeper and deeper. How come that while young and "free" I feel like I already crossed so many paths and it all gets to an end. I feel like I can't be myself, that I am completely incomplete? While with somebody I feel lonely. So many questions run over my head lately. I'm not really sure where to begin. I guess every now and then we have to face this not so sweet melancholy.
Wednesday, February 7, 2018
Monday, January 22, 2018
All I ask for
Today I'm listening to: "Somewhere" by Pete Yorn and Scarlett Johansson
Changes came quickly. Just like cold breeze on a windy day. It is so hard to keep in line. Why is it all haunting us, things become so different, so unbearable. I would love to be able to trust myself again. Is it possible to bulid a sandcastle if the wind blows all the time?
Changes came quickly. Just like cold breeze on a windy day. It is so hard to keep in line. Why is it all haunting us, things become so different, so unbearable. I would love to be able to trust myself again. Is it possible to bulid a sandcastle if the wind blows all the time?
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