floating under the water

Today I'm listening to: "Linger" by The Cranberries

Did you every have this feeling that you maybe said too much? That after time something becomes clearer but it's too late to change it? Like a letter which you wrote but it got lost in the post. Someone gets it long time after when everything is different. How fast everything transforms. How not to regret the past mistakes?

New terms

Today I'm listening to: "She Will Only Bring You Happiness" by Mclusky

Living in the modern society we have to educate ourselves about many unknown facts. There is no other gerenation that has experienced similar situations. Digital era. Did you guys know what "submarining" is? The World is sinking and so do we. 

So many lights and stars

Today I'm listening to: "Big City Life" by Mattafix

Incredible days, so many good conversations. That's what it's all about. Without these inspiring people I don't function.They are my light. 

And here we go again

Today I’m listening to: „Keep Yourself Warm” by Frightened Rabbit

Last days have been hazy. I tried to get a new addiction instead of that beautiful but full of pain one. Didn’t work out.
 Hands full of bugs like Perro De Andaluz and still I see those nights.

The day of last chances

Today I'm listening to: "Get Over" by Whitney

Yesterday and the day before and another day before was supposed to be the day of last chances. But it's gonna be today. I stop fooling around. Yes, I said it. It's been perfect for a few days. But these few days made me suffer for few months. There weren't so many tears acutally. There was just some deep pain of trying to forget. Today, no matter how it is going to end, I will drink wine and laugh, very laudly. 

Me, me, me

Today I'm listening to: "Lesson Learned" by Alicia Keys

The truth about our feelings is that we really can not control them. I forget about it all the time. What we can do is actually try to concentrate on some of them more. When you are wondering "why doesn't someone like me" the better question would be "why don't I like me". We don't think about ourselves enough. Why do we care what other people think if we don't care about what we think more? It does'n make sense, does it?

Fleeting

Today I'm listening to: "So We Danced In The Rain" by Seabass

That one evening changed everything. How is it possible that you can understand someone so well that at times you don't even have to talk? Why the most beautiful things are fleeting. I wish it all could happen again.

Let it be

Today I'm listening to: " Let It Be" by the Beatles

Paul McCartney once said that he saw his mother in a dream. She said then "let it be". That's the story of this song. I admire that kind of approach. Sometimes we try so hard to change things that we drawn into the situation and we cannot se the person on the other side. Guys. Let's let it be. Let's be real. 

I’m nothing. Let’s end things.

Today I’m not listening to anything.

This country we built was wrecked. The ship we were on has crashed completely. It’s over. And It hurts with a power of thousand suns. These are the saddest days of my life. There is Love in my heart but sad tears in my eyes. I’m alone. Again.

Today I’m listening to: „Glassworks” by Philip Glass

I miss you.

Today I’m listening to: „Nothing Compares 2 You” by Sinead o’Connor (composed by Prince)

Roses

There will be no more roses.
And any other flowers.
No more sleepless hours.
No more parties unattended
Together.
No more us,
Sad.

Only a few books will remind
What happened
But the library
Will be attended with the other her.

Today I'm listening to: "Everybody Talks"

*sound of walking towards sunset at the end of a movie"

M

Today I’m listening to: Four Five Seconds by Rihanna, Kanye West and Paul McCartney 

Two souls apart. 
From each other. 
From the big case. 
Both stubborn and independent. 
Both living together but still
Apart
Where shall we reach in order to make progress. 
Where to seek help
On
The lonely hill
Still reminding of Love.

Today I'm listening to: "Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me" by The Smiths

The time spent on waiting is the snowstorm for a troubled heart.

Today I'm listening to" "Listen to Your Heart" by Roxette

"Any magnet can be attracted to other magnets of reverse polarity."

See, it works in physics and it works everywhere else, including relationships. How come that two people who love each other so much can be so different? How did we get to the poin where our feelings can not be revealed and the truth is no longer an option? And I wonder...

Wisdom of a seagull

Today I’m listening to: „The End of the World” by The Cure

Evening in a jail. Everything seemd to be settled down. Until hyenas came and took the last pieces of meat. When they finished they came for me. There was no last will. Just red, bloody hole in the middle of my cell.