This

 Today I'm listening to: "This" by Ed Sheeran. That's what I do today. That's what I do when I disagree with reality. That's what I do when it's really bad. 

 Today I'm listening to: "Apocalypse" by Cigarettes After Sex

It's all about the journey not the destination. We get something and we start chasing after another thing, we get it or change our target and go on.

But the most important part is the journey, te dops of sweat, swearwords when something goes wrong, the times we open our eyes when we wish we didn't have to. That's what makes it all real. The continuous struggle to stay afloat and finally these simple yet short moments of beauty and laughter. 

Why Are Sundays So Depressing?

 Today I'm listening to: "Why Are Sudays So Depressing" by The Strokes

There are people on our life path who are not to stay. There are events which soon become memories and never come back. We might wake up one day missing it all but it appears to be too late. The changes have been made, the people we once cared about or even loved- moved on.

Letting go. That's it. That's what I have to finally learn. Because by letting go of the beautiful but still PAST we can create a space for the new to come. 

There are people on our life path who open our eyes for love. Who seem to love everything that we love and are as passionate as we are and then they are gone. There are events which happen only once in a lifetime. And it's alright. That's how it should be. 

And you never know when something wonderful will happen. Maybe in a few seconds?

And so much more

 Today I'm listening to: "Wind of Change" by The Scorpions

The autumn is breathing on my back and there is no denial. Autumn being a shadow of everyday life filled with clouds (not only in my coffee). 

And again the inevideble question, how did I get here? What made me come into this difficult yet somhow homey environment.

I'm watching my dog eat a spider. The event filled with amusement and pain. Depending on which side you are the experience will always be different.

I'm thrilled with idea of how certain events or stages in life make us so subjective when it comes to experiencing life, art, love, music and so much more.

Drama Queens

 Today I'm listening to: "Drama Queens" theme by Bethany Joy Lenz, Sophia Bush and Hilarie Burton

Can't believe the "Drama Queens" podcast is happening! Guys, check that out on Spotify (and probably some other online platforms). 

It's been a journey, it's been lonely, vulnerable. I've lost people who were close to me. But all in all I think I like my Drama Queen side. Has it made some damage over the years? 

Yeah, sure, som pretty huge damage. It really stirred up many situatlions. But it was authentic. I am authentic, even in my mistakes. I fall and I learn and I believe I'm never boring when I'm myself.

So here's to: Being ourselves, wishing others well (even if they did us wrong), exploring, tasting, feeling.

It is just around the corner

 Today I'm listening to: "California" by Phantom Planet

The answer is just around the corner. The only question is "Do I really want to know?". Sometimes the heavy air hanging in the sky is better then the knowledge of the worst. Isn't it? And shouldn't we make our own mistakes. Some people screw up less then the others. Does it mean that there should be rules about it? Ones get more for doing what's right. And the others get less, are less because of searching? I really don't quite understand how it all works. I'm confused, lost, alienated. And I will find out. Tomorrow I will know. I'd prefer not to. But I will do the right thing and hopefully it will work out. And if it doesn't? I will go where the wind blows. Tha'ts acutally what this song reminds me of. Fresh air, ocean breeze, living in the moment. 

Spots on the map

 Today I'm listening to: "Green Eyes" by Coldplay and "Open Your Eyes" by Snow Patrol

The way I see it is that sometimes people notice you when you're far far away. Out of reach. Why is that? Is it because we stop blending so well? Are we the red spots on their map?

Don’t Sell Fish

 Some of us dream of the greatness. Others just try to live by. We care about friends, family all the loved ones. And we must face the different dilemmas along the way. So what makes us so different? What makes us think that we are better then others? Why do we keep our sigh away from the problems? Selfishness is not a life, it’s an illusion. 

The lenght of the sound of lonliness

 Today I’m listening to: „Długość Dźwięku Samotności” by Myslovitz

Today I said to my friend: I think I like this song for honestly? You know? When the World is so loud you just need a minute to rest and reflect

How to bulid a disaster

 Today I'm listening to: "Fashionably Uninvited" by Mellowdrone

Picking a hole in everything when actually there is no hole.

1. Start by slowly lowering your self-esteem, kick yourseld in the head a couple of times. This might help.

2. Stop cleaning your mess, let it sit where it is. Especially your thoughts, put them off until "tomorrow"

3. Have a problem. You must have some problem, find it. Someone looked at you in a weird way in the store? Maybe your friends didn't invite you for the party? There it is!

4. Last but not least: don't talk to anyone about your feelings. I mean it.