Erase and Rewind

 Today I'm listening to: "Erase/ Rewind" by The Cardigans

Everyone has a right to change their mind. Freedom, why continue to be stuck in a situation without a way out? I changed my mind. I want to be good to myself. I have to respect myself because otherwise who will really? Sometimes we find ourselves in knee-deep in shit, that's where I am. I brought too much attention to a situation that really didn't deserve it at all. 

"In my life, why do I give valuable time

To people who don't care if I live or die?"

Didn't he care? Maybe he did but it seems as though I cared million times more. It just didn't add up. Why wouldn't he visit me? Why did I have to ask to see him? It all shows how it really was, how little was my role in the 'whole World according to...' I'm hurt, I wish I had only positive feelings towards ... but I don't. Even though it all wasn't said it just didn't make sense to keep dragging me along for the ride. And for what? It's time for healing. 

Down with Love

 Today I'm listening to: "I'm So Tired" by Fugazi

2nd of July, the day I finished something meaningful for me. It was my decision, I didn't get any help from anyone, all by myself I made my decision clear. I wish things were different, I wish that he wouldn't be seeing these other girls. The one with the keys and the dancer. But I can't help it, I came in when things were already in motion. He doesn't want me. And well, I have to accept it and move on. I wish it was different but it ain't. So this is goodbye I guess. I'm sending a lot of love, gratitude and a little tiny hit on the shoulder (just a tiny) with a single tear his way. True love will find me and it will be great. And I will be appreciated. Just have to be patient

Being an agressive player

 Today I'm listening to: "Narcotic" by Liquido

Being agressive? Is it a way to survive in today's society. Of course I'm not talking about agressive behaviour towards others, more about agressive moves when it comes to reaching our goals. Today in the bank I heard that it's better to be an agressive investor than a neutral one. In this case you have more possibilities (so they say). Agressive decisions while pursuing your love interest can be incredibly beneficial and give solid effects. Hot or cold, nothing in between