Very long journey

Today I'm listening to: "Until We Fall" by Audioslave

Have you ever wondered what would happen if we all were perfect? I bet you did. You see I'm not perfect and I never will, but I'm trying to be. I'm sure that in 10 years after now I'll be still sitting on this chair and wondering what if I've been doing something different... I haven't been here since long time. It's not because I couldn't but It's because I wanted to give myself time to think what should I do in my life. The answer is still unclear... I'm still looking for some things, that aren't made for me. Uhh! It's so damn hard to get to the top of the life mountain and stay there... I wish you reflective sunday.

Reading

Today I'm listening to: "Human Nature" by Michael Jackson

Michael Jackson said: “I love to read. I wish I could advise more people to read. There’s a whole other world in books. If you can’t afford to travel, you travel mentally through reading. You can see anything and go any place you want to in reading.” I think that's so important to read, not because you have to be super clever, but to have some different and sometimes better world to dicover. 

Prayer

Today I'm listening to: "Livin' on a Prayer" by Bon Jovi

Today I've realised, that our lives are very short. In the last week they were two motor crushes in my city. I knew both of the moto-drivers. One of them is right now in the hospital, but the other one died a few days after accident. I'm shocked and I can't realise what had really happened yet... Right now the prayer is the best we can do. 

The right place

Today I'm listening to: "People Ain't No Good" by Nick Cave

Seeing Nick on the concert was amazing. I mean, he has such a big influence on people, when he is singing. When I was looking at people from around the world standing and listening to him i've realised that it really matters for them, and for me too. I'm telling it to you guys, because I think, that our lives are connected. The ways we fallow are crossing, because we never know what will happen tommorow or the day after that, so I thing we should let the music lead us to the right places.

Live Free

Today I'm listening to: "The View from the Afternoon" by Arctic Monkeys

Tonight I've realised, that I'm totally free! I always lived with the belief, that I'm liv'in in some cage and I have to do what people think is right, I can't do anything different, because they will say, thst I'm a freak. That's why I have an IMPORTANT ANNOUCEMENT for you all: live free people and don't pretend anyone!

So long night

Today I'm listenig to: "The Reason the Night is Long" by Rainer Maria

"There are so many reasons the night is long...it's longest when I'm lying awake, thinking of everything and nothing at the same time. Staring at the darkness, going over all of it...back and forth...and the clock ticks on..."

Seven billion souls

Today I'm listening to: "Pot of Gold" by Game ft. Chris Borwn

"I miss the days

When life was simple

But if I never tried to follow that rainbow

In search of the pot of gold"


Today we feel like loosing something, we're not enough for these

days. People are using us and we have no power to say no. What

happened to us? We are so many and we can't get along. We are

fighting, killing, crying, regreting. In some moments we're 

happy, but these moments are short- too short. It's hard for me 

to understand why some things are going so wrong. Maybe that's 

because I'm young, but it's hard for me to imagine, that some day

 I will get to know why it got so bad. I hope you all found your

 ways and you are following them, but if you lost that like

I did, you should close your eyes and follow these 

words: "At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the 

world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell 

lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the

truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, 

struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six 

billion souls. And sometimes... all you need is one."  - Right 

now they are 7,123,172,816 people in the world, but the numbers 

doesn't really matter. Does they?

'The right pills every day'

Today I'm listening to: "Salt Sweat Sugar" by Jimmy Eat World

   Do you think, that we can save every bad situation? Can we be heroes by saving the casual talk, which didn't existed before? I think that we can if we are just trying to be creative:

Some people are just not respectful...

Today I'm listening to: "Scumfuck" bu Sum 41

Have you ever had this feeling, that you want to make something right and you think you do, but after that the other people are saying that it's not right? I hate it, because when I'm putting my heart into smething I want the others to respect that, but instead I get a lot of bad comments... What should we do to make them see how hard we are trying to make them respect us? I haven't found the solution yet. When you will, just let me know.

"Where the skies are so blue"

Today I'm listening to: "Sweet Home Alabama" by Lynyrd Skynyrd

Dream big people! It will save you from your darkest days and help you when you will need it the most.

Starting with me

Today I'm listening to: "Man In the Mirror" by Michael Jackson

Listening to this song makes me believe in people.  'I'm starting with the man in the mirror'- these words are telling us that we have a  power to change the world and we have to start this change by looking at ourselfs. It's not easy to change but I think it can be possible... I soud like optimist huh? I have no idea, what happened to me today!

The Donnas

Today I'm listening to: "Backstage" by The Donnas



How I love that old-fashioned rock. When I listen to them I feel like somebody understands me. The best femine rock band right after Bikini Kill!

I need it but I don't

Today I'm listeningo to: "Lines of My Earth" by Sixpence None the Riche

Have you ever felt taken off something you really needed? It's so hard to live without it, but than you realse, that maybe living with this thing is a lot harder than you expected... Reflection: Living has many ways to run -- the art is in finding the right ones, but if you are running, can you choose so fast the best one?

Melancholy

Today I'm listening to: "Second life replay (The Soundtrack of Our Lives)" from "Californication"

Recently I've noticed that all of my 'friends' are not taking me serious. I feel like I really have nobody to talk to besides my family members. Maybe it's good to be outsider, to have only myself, to live on my own. Some says, that it's inpossible to live without any friends but I think it's not really true. It was very hard for me to trust these people, but I did it and in the end of the day I ended here, alone, sitting, thinking of my hopes and dreams which exsists only in my mind and when I open my eyes they are all dissapearing. 'Melancholy'- that's the only word I think about today.

"When she talks, I hear the revolutions"

Today I'm listening to: "Rebel Girl" by Bikini Kill

I feel like everyone of us has some revolution. We're all powerful people! So let's rule the World tonight!

Truth

Today I'm listening to: "Something to Forget" by Texas is the Reason

"There's "hell" in hello, "good" in goodbye, "lie" in believe, "over" in lover, "end" in friend, "ex" in "next", & "if" in life." - it's another proof that everything has a meaning. But if it's true, how can we get to know what particularly something meas?

Radio

Today I'm listening to: "On fire" by Van Halen

Sometimes I feel like whatever I say sounds like broken radio. But isn't it just protecting my own rights? I may be wrong but I believe that our rights can be respected if we can explain why we think in that way. You may take me for an idiot, but I think that there is nothing worse than not showing our real face and pretending that we believe in something else than we do...

Finding

Today I'm listening to: "Like A Stone" by Chris Cornell

  I tried to find the way to wonderland, but right now I have to find the way to my soul because I lost it in the meantime...

We're like disappearing countries.

Today I'm listening to: "Stop and Stare" by One Republic

Everything we do- every move, every action leaves a trace. Sometimes we are forgetting to set the way- to leave the trace and in the end of the day we're forgotten- nobody remembers about us and nobody cares about what we do. That's why we have our passions which can save us from being forgotten. You can say, that many great artists had been forgotten eaven if they had passions. You are right, but it's not only about having the passion- sometimes if you remember about the other people, you can have hope that someone will remember about you. Reflection: 'Do you remember about those, whom no one remembers?'.

"To guide me, give me your strength"

Today I'm listening to: "Chariot" by Gavin DeGraw

If you haven't heard him you've got to do this immediately! He has a real talent! His voice makes me feel like there are so many ways to solve our problems- we just have to look for them.

The people around us.

Today I'm listening to: "Imagine" by John Lennon
In the world there is a lot of people. Some of them are lost and some of them are just looking for theirs destinations, some of them are trying to be brave eaven when it's really tough. Every human being is in some way different than another but in our hearts we are this same. We're all looking for this same but in the millions of other ways. Reflection: 'How I want to achieve greatness? Is that a good way or the highway to darkness?'

Heroes

Today I'm listening to: "Hero" by Nickelback
Have you ever imagined: 'how it is, to be a hero'? How they could live normal with their powers? Sometimes I wish I could be one of them, but than I realise that it's inpossible... Is that true? Maybe I can't have the powers like they've got but if I'll  try to do the best I can and follow my dreams, I think, that I can became a hero- HERO of my life... Just don't give up in trying to beacome a better person. 

Comic art

Today I'm listening to: "Live to Rise" by Soundgarden

by: John Lustig

Savin'

Today I'm listening to: "Savin' Me" by Nickelback

Today I'm comming to you with my complains again... You know, sometimes I'm dreaming about the world without money, alcohol, drugs, pain, problems, pretenders, liers, loosing people we love and these all things which make us weak and  which are pushing us from the highest mountains without rope. It sucks because when we are falling we feel that no one will catch us, help us or save us. Sometimes it makes us really angry or sad, but than we've got this one pearson which is looking for us from heaven - God - hes makes everything easier, but we have to try to trust him and in the end of the day he saves us. In heaven there's no falling, nobody's hurting great huh?

'You alwas hurt the one you love'

Today I'm listening to: "You and me" by Penny and the Quarters.
    I've decided to tell you about the movie I've seen a few days ago called 'Blue Valentine'. I feel like this picture had changed my whole life. The unrequited love and the problems between these dwo people bringed on the darkest places of my mind and I couldn't stop crying eaven when I've ended watching it. I guess this situation in their marriage was so hard that they couldn't live anymore. Was it good decision they made about ending their relationship? It was very hard for me to just say that I'm alright with this all... 

not understandable

Today I'm listening to: Non-State Actor by Soundgarden

Why people are jumping on my without the reason? I think that they have so many problems that they can't solve them an they are trying to judge you, because they are thinking, that it will make them feel better! That's insane but true... I hate the world.

Prison

Today I'm listening to: Friday I'm in love by The Cure

They were the days of darkness put you always have to find the solutions which won't be bad for you and your mental health. Well it's very hard to do it but:
1. Fight everyting what will stand on your way to achieve success
2. Don't listen to other people and don't care about what they say- "People are the worst animals"
3. Believe in good ending- without it you can forget about everything i said.
4. Be a Dreamer

I can tell you about 100 of reasons why you should leave the prison in which you are living in, but the most important thing is to listen to your heart.

Care

Today I'm listening to: "It's not over yet" by Middleman
I feel like I'm loosing faith in charity of people. Thing is that they are chainging and I think that not for good... Or maybey there is something in me, well I always knew, that I'm different but so different- is that possible? I'm trying to do everything right but in the end of the day it ends thisame I'm just choking with my good intentions. I will not care about things they say anymore, it's good solution- it's the only solution which makes sense right now.

Don't trust them!

Today I'm listening to: Bet You Look Good On The Dancefloor by Arctic Monkeys
Everything on this world is about making peolpe feel jelous and uncomfortable about theirselfs: let's take for example two "friends" girls (girl A and girl B)
 One day A is seating and reading a book like always and B comes to school in new clothes and pearcing in her belly and she is not talking to girl A anymore until the moment when girl B feels lost and has a problem she comes to girl A and she is trying to make her feel sorry! This is not what frendship should look like! People are doing rubbish and they knows that very well. This World is very fucked up! Don't you think so?!!!

Carry on

Today I'm listening to: Today by Chris Cornell
This artist is amazing! You need to listen to his voice and don't forget about the words just taken from heaven! Just listen and enjoy! 

Madness

How many ways we'll pass, how many people we'll meet, how many things will happen to us before we'll get to the end? Just think about it and tell me why it's so hard to predict the future? It would be much easier if I'd know what will happen but would it be better? We never know that before we'll check it by ourselfs- hard but what I can say the World is what it is and we shouldn't bother ourselfs by arguing and eaven talking to people which doesn't regard us well should we? So just make your own predictions and don't show people our dark sides.

Don't let them take that shine from your eye

Today I'm listening to:New World by Leroy --> cheerful  
Sometimes I see people walking down the street and thinking about things that I have no idea about. But suddenly something happened just like bright colour on the white paper... Well you can  figure out the end of this story and it's up to your mind- I'll just say that it was something misterious but unexpectible (In a good meaning of these words) at this same time. Well it was a good day- I was waiting for it for 2 years but it was worth it.

Advice from the best

"why you need to motivated yourself everyday ?

When you motivated you could take on any challenge and succeed because motivated man or a women dose not know they boundary's and dose not know what failure is.
So working on any task during the day and making it work when you motivated is just simple task that dose not take a lot of effect.

Get motivated to live life and make it simple for yourself."
- that's what said Frank Robinson- one of the greatest basketball players. Just think about it and take this advice.

 

Redemption

Today I'm litening to: "Vindicated" by Dashboard Confessional.


Black clouds came to city to kill many hopeless people. They attacked everyone of us' cause we needed help the most, and they gave us solution... good or bad? We couldn't understand what they waned to achieve but we failed and after that the days were eaven darker than these before. - Just some of evening thoughs by Me.

What Comes After the Blues?

Today I'm listening to: Magnolia Electric Co. - "What Comes After the Blues" just dreaming about better times... Because everything gets complicated when you can't find the way back to your childhood memories, when it was much easier than now... when you didn't have to think about tommorow and the days after that.