Melancholy

Today I'm listening to: "Second life replay (The Soundtrack of Our Lives)" from "Californication"

Recently I've noticed that all of my 'friends' are not taking me serious. I feel like I really have nobody to talk to besides my family members. Maybe it's good to be outsider, to have only myself, to live on my own. Some says, that it's inpossible to live without any friends but I think it's not really true. It was very hard for me to trust these people, but I did it and in the end of the day I ended here, alone, sitting, thinking of my hopes and dreams which exsists only in my mind and when I open my eyes they are all dissapearing. 'Melancholy'- that's the only word I think about today.